I have been browsing the blogs online for some time and one interesting thing I noticed was that there are lots of people who would post their kids pictures in their blogs. I have no problems with that, but I guess what I couldn’t understand was how come they feel so comfortable about that and how come there are just so many of them who would do the same thing-posting the pictures of their kids. Is it really something they are proud of? The answer is obvious. Having kids in their lives must be the best thing that ever happened to them. For me, it’s a little hard to understand simply because I don’t think I would have a kid in my life. It’s not that I don’t want to have kids, since my parents are pushing me constantly to that corner; it’s just that I don’t think I would get married to a woman. Adopt a child? Maybe yes, but who doesn’t want to be the biological father? It’s complicated and the more I think about it, the more I think I am a loser. And I don’t understand why I was born gay when I cannot enjoy the “normal” life like those proud parents. Not only once did I cry alone just because of the fact that I am gay and I cannot enjoy the so called normal life. Being gay and being an Asian in this country is harder than I thought. But I guess since I was born like this and I cannot change who I am, I might as well live with it and enjoy it.
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